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People always say, be yourself, you'll get what you want. Is it true? I don't think so. I don't believe in that, seriously, it's like, you see, when you be yourself, you just can't get waht you want. Maybe someone will insult you or whatsoever. Some people that acting infront of the one you love, is better than being yourself, is that so? NO! Think properly, you're not a 9 years old kid anymore, you're more than 15 now. Can say you're an adult now, stop being so childish immature, grow up please. You're just being stupid and silly infront of him/her. It's useless kay? I'm trying to be nice, I'm trying to help you, but fuck you're making my life so miserable. It's like, you want me, you find me, you don't want me, you don't find me. What am I to you? Who am I to you?!!! Fuck, get a life man.

Your world is my world,

And my fights is your fight.

My breath is your breath.

I just want someone to know what's on my mind, can anyone tell me, is there anyone outside will willing to be my friend? I mean the one that I can talk with, not play with, not study with. Is there anyone outside there waiting for me? idk, I just need one. Anyway, people stop being so retarded, its not like you don't have any life, you have a life, so live with it, stop being so greedy. Appreciate what you have lah, why you want so much? Why you wanna ask more? Har? it's not liek you're born poor, you're rich or maybe average, so? You still have money to continue living in this world, so appreciate your life. Stop saying, Iwanna die, he broke up with me, he dont want me, I want to die, I want to kill myself, I wanna suicide. FUCK THAT lah, suicide lah, I don't care, your family cares about you ONLY. Do you think the guy you like fucking care about that. He don't! He'll say just, wtf, whats wrong with her? She don't have to suicide, she's stupid.

Do you want people to say that you're brainless, think lah! Before doing all those stupid stuff. I'm not smart, but hey, I admit I'm not smart, if you have brain, think lah. I'm not being selfish or what, but seriously, you have a brain, so use it! Dont waste it lah, God give you the brain to think, not to waste it, live it there! i'm so fucking angry now and I got nothing to say about anymore. Think lah you bitch.

Exams are over, just over. I'm so happy finally finals are over, but I'm sad too. Few more weeks I'm gonna be 17, few more weeks I'm gonna be in form 5. So fast? SPM? Wtf man, just over finals and now I'm talking about spm? Weird. Okay, lets talk about holidays, where should I go? Should I go out and work? Should I go shopping? Dye up my hair? IDK WHAT TO SAY. BYE!.

拆开了爱情的保鲜
赏味期限是没上限
凭我感觉自由来挑选
酸酸甜甜都由我做主

看到你的微笑像可口的樱桃
笑著对我说你好甜蜜到炸掉
快乐摆在餐桌我好想吃到饱
喝一口浪漫我就开始醉倒

偶尔需要吃醋刺激味蕾
好让你发现我是多么可贵
加一点想念加一点冒险
幸福的滋味我调味

拆开了爱情的保鲜
赏味期限是没上限
凭我感觉自由来挑选
酸酸甜甜由我做主

品味著爱情的酸甜
赏味期限是没上限
平淡浓烈我都不拒绝
酸酸甜甜都由我做主
猜忌怀疑暧昧我都乐于体会
爱情是一种直觉没什么绝对
我们天生一对真心就是绝配
酸甜的回忆每天都要回味

偶尔需要吃醋刺激味蕾
好让你发现我是多么可贵
加一点想念加一点冒险
幸福的滋味我调味

拆开了爱情的保鲜
赏味期限是没上限
凭我感觉自由来挑选
酸酸甜甜由我做主

品味著爱情的酸甜
赏味期限是没上限
平淡浓烈我都不拒绝
酸酸甜甜都由我做主

酸酸甜甜的好滋味由我来做主
啦啦~酸酸甜甜~啦啦~

拆开了爱情的保鲜
赏味期限是没上限
凭我感觉自由来挑选
酸酸甜甜由我做主

品味著爱情的酸甜
赏味期限是没上限
平淡浓烈我都不拒绝
酸酸甜甜都由我做主

e:青春是窗边那份月光手札
遇见你至千至夜也无暇
曾经的夜里你会点灯开始写她
用世上最清脆温柔的笔画
h:你不爱了吧所以渐渐的将笔搁下
只剩我一个人傻傻
在月光下静静翻阅那些话

s:爱不爱我你都懒得回答
原来我付出的年华只换到你的潇洒
我的愿望奢侈吗
就算只是一小束花 oh~
e:爱不爱我你都懒得回答
我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦
我是一把无奈的雪花
漫步在你给的炎夏
e:深情像无须灌溉那盆插花
所以你宁愿忽略了也不怕
s:没有爱了吧所以你渐渐不再看她
只剩我褪色的纸呀
在月光下没有人可以说话

爱不爱我你都懒得回答
原来我付出的年华只换到你的潇洒
h:我的愿望奢侈吗
就算只是一小束花
爱不爱我你都懒得回答
我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦
我是一把无奈的雪花
漫步在你给的炎夏

爱不爱我你都懒得回答
原来我付出的年华只换到你的潇洒
我的愿望奢侈吗
就算只是一小束花
爱不爱我你都懒得回答
我的眼泪你也慢慢别过头不再去擦
我是那份悲伤的手札
只为等你写几句话

只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
却成了单人结婚进行曲
在这场爱情角力的拔河里
爱我还是爱你
你选择了自己 wo~

撒娇的可爱的

迷人的爱哭的

照片里曾经的都是你喜欢的
如今我还在原地
你却走回你的记忆

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你
只剩下钢琴陪我站在这里
梦想中属於我们的婚礼
安静了在我枕边的梦里
我知道相爱原本就不容易
爱不是一场雨
努力就有结局 wo~
撒娇的可爱的
迷人的爱哭的
照片里曾经的都是你爱着你的
连假的泪还温热
却没有人握我的手

你说我爱你太多就快要把你淹没
你害怕幸福短暂一秒就崩落
分开是一种解脱让你好好的想过
我想要的那片天空你是不是能够给我

你说我给你太多却不能给我什麽
分不清激情承诺永恒或迷惑
爱情是一道伤口我们各自苦痛
沉默是我最后温柔是因为我太爱你

Finally I get to blog again, haha XD Just move to my new house, sri gombak.

Getting further and further, sorry friends, this is not my choice to move here D:

Anyway, I got nothing to say , yesterday, I wanted to blog so badly, but now,  I don't feel like blogging.

Sorry.

Not in a mood, finals are here now, I'm not scared at all, idk why D:

Baby, you've taught me what is love. You made my life full fill with sweetness and suprises :D I don't love you, I don't like you, but I want you to be in my life. You're the first one that I've wanted so much, without loving you. Baby, hold my hands tight and say you love me, you need me and you don't wanna let go of me. You know, letting go is hard for me, idk is it hard for you anot, but now I know, I won't let you go until the day you want me to let go of you.

Why you guys wanna judge about me and my life? Is it fun judging people's life? That is so unfair, good people die faster than the bad ones. I'm skipping school tomorrw and yes, I don't have to tell you why I'm not going, you know, you always stalk me, so stop stalking me! And to you, I won't write out your name, I'll call you as B. B, I'm your friend, how can you do that to me? I got higher mark in this exam, I scored better in this exam, so? You cannot say that to me, do you know how hurtful is that? You don't know, you always think that you're those oh-so-call miss perfect. You're not that perfect you know? You always think that everyone likes you, but you don't know, back of you, alot of peoples hates you. I didn't want to tell you, because you're my friend, I care about how you feel, how wouldn't you react. That's why I didnt wanna tell you all of that, but then you! Whenever I said something, that you don't like, but it is so true to me, you'll say this over and over, " you know, alot of people don't like you lo."

I don't know what you want, but fine, you're richer, you're smarter, you're prettier, fine, I give up. I can't win you in any of that, except my studies, if I put more effort I know I can. But others, I know that is so not going to happen, whatever, I love my life, love being average, I don't wanna be that rich like you. Don't care about your safety or whatsoever. Always say no this no that, don't like that, don't like this. But you're the one doing all of'em!

Sometimes, people say that you act like plastics,

I will say no,

But now,

I can feel that, you really do act like a plastic!

I'm sorry to say that, but it is so true, I just can't help it, I can't hide the truth from you guys right? Anyway, I thought most of my classmates not going to school, but now all sok chun. Eh? kenapa sok chun eh? Scared mati? Omg, cowards lah, please, if scared to skip, JUST SAY, don't say, I have to go to school lah, cause of my this and that, I cannot skip, ifnot no one will do this and that. Apa excuse is this? Don't lie, we know what are you hiding from us, ohh, we know alot :D

And maybe you guys seriously don't know how I feel, you guys will know how I feel, some day. I don't want more from you guys, I just need you guys to know how I feel thats all. B, you're my friend, you're always be my friend until the day you leave me, and say you don't wanna be my friend anymore. And to some other maniac, don't spam people blog for nothing. It's rude, stupid, brainless.

Idk what to say, what to do.

Damn, sometimes, I thought, having lots of friends are good.

But now I don't think so, Idk who to ask, who to invite.

Teach me, oh pleasee, teach me what to do.

I'm moving soon and I'll be effing busy lately.

* Damn msn, why you keep on signing in and out?! *

Arggh, maybe God wants be to change my compy to lappy :D

Effing happy hahaha XD

Anyway, I'm so lazy nowadays, wtf I'm lazy everyday.

Damn, have to study lah! Force myself lah.

Darn, have to stop playing, watchin tvee, but I know I'm so gonna go watch tve later D:

What to do, I don't feel the pressure now.

Damn I need pressures, but not from you S!

From some other people, not you!

Don't be so perasan!

Anyway, I think I've started falling for someone already.

But Idk I'm falling for which one of you.

Sometimes I need both of you to be there for me, sometimes I don't.

Maybe I don't, I just need someone to talk to me.

Yea maybe, but I really don't feel like letting go you two.

I know I can't have both of you, but I want to have both of you in my life.

Maybe I'm greedy, so?

Sometimes, people are greedy, what to do?

This is life, get over it!

I don't think one of you two like like me, so?

I don't need you two to like me, I just want you two to be there for me everytime I need you two.

That's enough for me already, I don't need you two to like me.

Remember that, like someone, you don't have to have that person.

Like someone, you don't have to be with him/her to be happy.

Remember, he's/she's happy, you'll always be happy.

Don't force someone to be yours, don't ever do that.

That's forcing, that's not love.

Remember that! :D

Been so busy lately, didnt get enough sleep end up being sick-o here already. Everyone said I've changed alot, have I? Idk, maybe I did, but I didn't realize it. Its good right? I'm getting older, so I have to change, not to be like who I used to be. Didn't get to online, didn't get to talk with someone. It's okay thou, he's not my siapa, I'm not his siapa, I shouldn't care about that so much. Anyway, went to my cousins wedding, wooosh, she was so darn happy and pretty, admired by so many girls that night. She and Jimmy Gor used to be in the same school, same class, in primary. Their parents knew each other since so long time ago, but they didnt get to know each other til then. Is that call fate? Idk, I don't really believe in fate, I don't wanna believe in fate at all.

Anyway, alot of things are happening in ssb. Before that, there's this form 5's bro passed away, it's a tragedy. And now, jcen wey, our ex form 5 dude. He passed away the day before yesterday, I think, in a terrible accident. I felt so sorry for him, he's just 18, and his sister gonna have pmr this wed. I hope she can get through her pmr, I hope she'll be alright. I'm so freakish sleepy right now, and it's just 1:17pm == Lmao. what to do? This is choy hoong. I miss texting someone, not him, but someone. Idk why, I lik him? I don't know. Maybe I just need someone to be there when i need'em, yea maybe.

Things to do for this week:

• Study for finals.
• Move my stuff to the new house.
• Eat less.
• Drink more.
• Exercise more.
• Read more.
• Pray more. =.=
• Practice my piano more.
• Be patient more.
• Save more money.

No more I think, I'll add up more next time. And to you S, What the fuck is wrong with you? Why you wanna bitch about me to our teacher? It's my life, can count as my privacy too! What the fuck is wrong with you? Bitching about someone is fun is it? You're smarter than me ALOT, so? Doesn't mean you can bitch about me behind my back. You can talk, why can't I? You can play, why can't I? Nowadays, our SCHOOL teacher complain about your nerdy fucked up group mates, more than me and my friends! So shut your effing mouth, or else I'll bitch about you too, or maybe I'll screw you face to face == Pysco Maniac!